Broken Ground Farm

I had recently been praying over our land and what we were supposed to be doing. Slowly this year our homestead has been added to and has been seeing growth. Something about those pigs. I don’t know why, but I have been oddly excited to add them to the homestead. I planned and eagerly waited for them to get here. Something about having them here struck a cord in me. Joy. Peace. Thankfulness. To those who don’t believe in God, to those who don’t homestead, it will sound crazy. But somehow after their addition I had this notion, this peace, that we are moving in the right direction. Stepping into a calling that has been buried down within me.

Along with the addition of pigs comes this realization that I don’t need to hold onto things of the past. Like my teaching degree. I have stubbornly held onto it for years, even after God being like, “Hey, you aren’t going to teach like that.” I have worked to put in the P.D. hours the state requires to keep it active. I have stressed over what classes to take. I even signed up for one this summer thinking it was online. Turns out it was an in person class. Not only was it far from my home, I was in a different state at the time. I couldn’t get the site to work and let me drop the class. I didn’t have the e-mail of anyone to say I wasn’t going to be there. Ugh. I had to be a no show…more stress. Thankfully, it was a free class and we didn’t lose money on it. Even after coming back home, I was like which class should I take? This might, might, be helpful in homeschooling. This would be helpful if I ever HAVE to be in the classroom again. More stress. I didn’t know what to take and I didn’t want to take any of it. I looked at C.N.R. and asked, “What if I just let it expire?” He said he had wondered that for years, but didn’t want to tell me just to drop my certificate.

So, here we are. I am at peace with not renewing my certificate. I don’t want to be away from my kids and my home. I don’t want to be working in a broken system that my family doesn’t believe in. Now, we have several friends and family members that work within the system at varying levels and they send their kids to school. No judgement. I know each family has to fulfill the calling of God on their lives and their family. But why have I been hanging onto what was not meant for mine? There is definitely peace in the letting go.

Not every day looks the same here. Some days are busy and some are slow. Some days we experience health for us and the farm, some days its sickness. Some days we have a good routine and school is done quickly. Other days school is surrounded by complaints. Yet, some days school is skipped and made up later. There is never a dull moment on the farm. Every day is a day to learn and a day to trust God.